*spins in places and does a Michael-ish "Hoo!"*

All has been made up and a new policy is laid between us. Thank. God.

Two of my friends seem to (BUT IS IT REALLY SUCH??) not care that I'm suffering, for they've stayed silent to me. I don't know if it was them ignoring me, which would hurt even more, or if they simply thought my being alone was for the better, when in fact, it didn't help. You ask me, I'd like to have been talked to daily to see if I'm feeling better, and to know that people actually have my back no matter what I'm suffering. I let my anger get to me again and I've yelled at them for this and what else? They leave me. I bet they think I'm not worth it.

Except for gold characters to jack and abuse and desecrate[/sarcasm]


What do you guys out there have to say about this?

Be honest.

And what would you say to them if I tell you who they are?

Some exams and due dates are past. I made a breakthrough in repair to what I thought was gone (my friendships). And yet, I have to surrender control in what me and them do and go onto my faith, surrender to prayer and get out of my denial.

The healing runes have proven once again to be a working force in shaping my problematic life. Where simple talk and shallow prayer didn't seem to work out, the healing runes provided the picture for me.

I may have to take time away and re-shift focus onto my faith for things, but at least I am on the road to recovery and really bettering myself. This is now prevention from letting what had happened recently from ever transpiring again.

~ D.J.

Hated, ignored, teased, or otherwise mistreated. Even by my classmates. Those in Anime Club and in work-study with the theatre seem to be the only exceptions.
Regardless, whatever work I do end up accomplishing is undervalued, everyone waits until the most stressful time (especially the most stressful for ME) to do things, and my health and sanity sharply decline.

Such is the story of my life. I better be prepared for backstabbers and heartbreakers every step of the way or else I'm not going to be able to survive.



Good day to you. *holds up a knife, and licks off the blood* For if you cross me, it may just be your last.

~ dj
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i can't stand seeing it. this year just plain sucks. too many people are dying, specifically celebrities, and even LEGENDS among them.

the recent events have thrust ME into the thick of it. the image and impression of myself in the eyes of the actual closest ones to me has been changed. i doubt that i am actually, really loved.

i know that i have never felt more alone than i do right now.

whatever. my rest is nowhere in sight. all i have to look forward to is WORK, WORK, WORK and THANKLESS WORK. such is the story of my life.