one thing above all else. and that is genuine love and support, even if that means she can only hear and listen to what i have to say.
*sigh* I'm getting over it, and after voicing my concerns and my source of stress that just drove me over the edge, and at the same time convincing her, now there is something else i need.. to do.

After having found no one else in my life that even likes me to this extent and sees the charm and good in me, and admitting to this, I promised, no, I mean VOWED to give her my undying support for her to achieve what she must in her career by the mean$ of me performing my incoming career. In return, she has promised to be my support. Therefore, what I need to do is to stay strong, and not waver.

I HAVE MADE A VOW. ABOVE ALL ELSE, ALL THE WAY UNTO MY DEATH, THIS MUST BE KEPT.
So now, I go and do my work for me AND for her… for OUR future!

~ Daniel

EDIT 3/29:
Today is the 30 year anniversary of Three Mile Island. That was nearly OUR Chernobyl. My dad (and mom) went through this and remembered the fear that, like at Chernobyl, the people may never have been able to move back. Quite a scary deal, people. But these days, that kind of mistake made then wouldn't happen.