so much in way of major things in my and my family's life and i can do nothing to affect any of it. but that fact makes none of it any less stressful!!

i've had two BAD nosebleeds this night, and the stress is making me ill, on verge of violently ill. i hope to GOD IN HEAVEN i don't have to be hospitalized for treatment. otherwise, NOW it's all coming out of pocket. stupid f*cking new owners of my mom's employer! go die in a fire for taking away our health insurance!


but what hurts the most? the people i had called friends called all of what was happening to me bull$#¡†. and ABSOLUTELY NOTHING f*cks me off more than having my honesty and integrity questioned. i'm sorry, but i need a LOT more than a meaningless texted "i'm sorry" for this to be made up to me sufficiently.

you guys ought to be ASHAMED of yourselves! D<
THAT'S BULL$#¡†!!!



for those that DO CARE, apart from them that didn't, please say a prayer for me that i can actually return to good health and actually have a vacation.